FW: Hey

Omg I hate my cellphone so much
Why the hell that it keep bringing up those really old emails?!

I just got a little bit better today. Thinking abt how stupid I m to sit here moaning while she's got a whole new life.
I don't wanna be sad anymore coz there's no point. But then, this email showed up. Questioning me how I would live with those memories.

I fucking don't know!

Sent from my Windows Phone

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From: Pam Hu
Sent: 8/22/2012 9:31
To: Gil Chen
Subject: Re: Hey

My dearest babe, 

Your incoming emails are now all under Private. It's funny cuz it's almost like, YOU are my Private property. No one else can have you, your mine. Tho Im sure that's not what that was designed to mean. I love you so much. Sometimes I will see something, and I will miss you, like crazy. 

We are in a little Denmark style county in South Cali called Solvang, it reminds me of Vermont, quiet, cute and small, pretty but everything closes at 5 or 6 pm. And I said I liked it but wouldnt live here, didn't like how there's nothing to do at night. But both my parents said they'd like it, ( except my dad later said never mind cuz he couldn't stay away from his friends... like father like daughter I guess=P). And that made me think, about how you could be the one, that makes me want to think about settling at a place like this. I imagine you must have to be SO contained with your very own life to be at a place that doesn't allow you that much otherwise. And I am SO glad that I found you. That you are here with me, by my side, and WILL actually be by my side in a couple months. I am so thankful.

I love you my dearest babe! Muah muah.

Raising a kid could be so much, I'm experiencing that right now. Hahah having your parents that do not speak too much English here in the States, is just like having two little kids with you. In the beginning, often times I find that I had forgotten about them, or assumed that they would enjoy something just as much as I do. It's hard, but I'm sure if the two of sever made that decision, we'd be good parents. Don't worry sweetheart, I know we won't do it unless both of us know for sure that we are ready. We'll be fine:)

Hope you won't be too tired going to HK. Have a great night babe.

Good night! 

Love you like crazy,

Pammy=P (guess I don't dislike that name SO much after all) 

Sent from my iPad

On Aug 22, 2012, at 7:06, Gil Chen <fynnasher@gmail.com> wrote:

Dear Big Pammy :)

hope u dont mind i call u that :P it's not our favorite name i know haha

i might go to hongkong again tmr or recently, coz one of my cousin need me to buy nai fen for her baby :( i think i'll just go, buy it, and then come back .. it's such a complicated thing to raise a kid ma...

it's raining here, getting cooler. it might feel like autumn when u go back home. 

i've been waiting and keep telling myself, i can kiss you when it's winter again... so .. really happy to see the weather changes

it's been several days that i haven't hear my babe sa jiao la, i'm starving for that :P well.. i know u miss me as much as i do

mua mua i would give you a big smile when i hear u r enjoying family time. and i m doing the same<B0C.gif>

big kisses for my sweet heart <3

L